Isolated??

For some reasons I myself don't know why I'm so down this few days. I don't felt like myself anymore. I just isolated myself from everything and everyone. What has happened to me? I wonder?? Am I Tired? Sick? Frustrated? Aimless? Meaningless? I don't have any clue... I still wondering keep on yawning and wondering.

I wondered why I looked at people around me so differently as before? I can felt that they want/have something to tell me but they reluctant to tell me and keep on keeping that thing to themselves. I wonder how long will they keep it to themselves before they gonna burst it out to me??? I wonder... How long i will keep myself like this. Remain Silence and Isolating myself from everyone... I wonder??

I keep on yawner and wonder beyond this dilemma, I wonder...

I need to wake up to make myself useful again. Come on u can pass this dilemma and be yourself again. Don't give up YET! Sigh, how I wish...


"Ivy keep on her Moody mood until Evening and she is still in wondering wonderland"

Self Meditation

In life there's a few questions which we have to ask to ourselves and we will never get the answers correctly or truthfully! or we might be too afraid/scare to know the truth and answer yet we tend to ignore all consequences to the questions...and we turn ourselves blind along the way...like a blindfold man ... Some of the questions will linger to our head every minutes, every moments, every seconds... Me myself will never escape from this such questions... these are what I always had in my mind lately! some of the questions is unanswered and undeniable but Im blessed because i have Faith with me all along the way to clear my mind from unwanted thoughts!
These are some of the lists about confusion and questions which has always linger on my mind.

1.Have u ever LIED to yourself? Telling yourself everything will be fine,will be okay?Even though u know only Miracles will help.
2.Have u ever felt so ALONE in your life before?
3.Have u ever felt BETRAYED before?
4.Have u ever felt so insecure and lonely?
5.Have u ever felt so small in the eyes of others?
6.Have u ever felt life is like a box of Chocolate? or
7.Have u ever felt like u been treat like a box of Chocolate?
8.Have u ever felt the world is laughing at your failure?
9.Have u ever felt like u don't want to continue living with your previous life and want to starts over with new life?
10.Have u ever felt u want to change yourself for a better person and forget all the heartache u have now?
11.Have u ever wish u were rich and beautiful? so that people will looked at u and respect and love u everymoment?
12.Have u ever wish u never knew "one person" in your life ever?
13.Have u ever wish u could turn back the clock and changed whatever past life u had?
14.Have u ever felt glad that u were born to your family? but u never had the time to spend with them?
15.Have u ever wish u never be so stupid and so naif with life?
16.Have u ever felt all the TIME/DURATION u spend waiting for something and yet still in "???"is stupid?
17.Have u ever felt lost? but GOD help u to go trough with all the pain by giving u HOPE and GRACE?
18.Have u ever wish life will be more easier and more understandable?
19.Have u ever wish u could understand "that person" as before? and lastly
20.Have u ever wish everything that happen to u, is only a dream?

These are some of my Questions about my life...i always think and asks myself the TRUTH answer. BUT i just couldnt find and im still searching for IT...someday somehow or rather i will/hope i understand what life is about and i will find the answer to all this questions. This is LIFE!

One thing I know...I must not let myself fall out and shouldn't give up on life yet! I must be strong and accepts all without anger and disappointment. :)

TAG... again!

Wow... Another AWARD ka NANCY??? Thank you horr for this Awesome AWARD .u deserve all the awards too... I meant IT horrr...

1st Award:

Emm this Award a bit Awkward to me though cause my Blog...tak seksi pun...:( ini bermakna aku kena la kerja lebih sikit utk buat Blog ini menjadi lebih seksi! Duh... i will, i will... in the future! Keep in mind!

2nd Award:

Friendship... Yeah! to all my friends out there, who have a blogspot or dont have any blog, i love u guys! Thanks for being my FRIENDs ya! U know who u are, keep smile always lit on your face, because u will never know u might makes other person smile as well!

3rd Award:

The Rules:
1.) Put the logo in your post.
2.) Write 5 things you are passionate about aside from blogging.
3.) Tag 5 people on your lists and let them know you tagged them.
Have fun blogging guys, and enjoy and don't forget to pass or tag your friends whom you think are passionate bloggers :-)

Five Things I'm passionate
1)Travelling
(when $$ n time permits)Yeah this is TRUE Nancy. (I copy arrr)
2)Friendships (More meaningful)
3)Books.( I have to admit this, I love READING! I loves books)
4)Food. ( kuat makan tapi enda pandai gemuk2 juga! Geram Saya!)
and
5)Ice-Cream ( boleh ka?)bila depress ini la makanan kegemaran saya
6)Flowers ( I love FLOWERS esp TULIPS)
hehehe i add one more! boleh ba kan!

I think i will tag..

1. Marysheallyn
2. Cherrylenn
3. Cindy
4. Shalyn ( if she happens to notice this TAG!)

24 Jan 2009

Im so Blessed to have YOU guys to celebrated my birthday with me ...ITS OUR BIRTHDAYS! Happy Birthday to us : Me, Ying, Jim and Desh! I hope next year we still can celebrate our birthday together again!

This is a wonderful day to start with! We starts the day with Rain celebrations. Wet all around. Gosh, it really blowed our mind already, takut tak sempat nak panggang ayam! ala wasted la... Nasib baik, hujan berhenti juga and we dapat la make the party berjalan!

Thank you to all my cousins and friends because you all make it really happening...
Thanks!


Ice-Cream Cake from Baskin Robbin Courtesy of Sabrina and Lionel... Thanks love it so much! More Photo at Facebook!

Yang Paling Sexi!

hmm..a sexy tag from sexy Nancy (^_^)

1. Tangkap @serta kan 3 keping gmbr anda yg anda rasa kn paling seksi.
2. Tak semestinya tak berpakaian atau mendedahkan. Mungkin anda rasa senyuman anda masa itu adalah seksi. Sertakan!!!

3. Nyatakan kenapa gambar itu begitu seksi di mata anda?



Picture number 1 - (@ home doing Nothing!)
Taking some New Picture of My MakeOverself ALONE is sexy! Cause i can dont have to listen to anyone giving instruction on how to posed!



Picture number 2 - (@ Malacca~ Near the River!)
I like this picture because... its NOT EASY to have had this moments, Where I can be with FRIENDS and DRINK BEER while Having a GOOD SNACKS~ EGG TART! :) So Sexy!



Picture number 3 - (@ Zoo ChiangMai)
I love this picture because, its like im having a BLAST with the Ziraffe! Ziraffe KISSING me! Sikit lagi kena cium ni! Really Sexy!

4. Tag 3 atau 4 rakan-rakan anda yang seksi .
(ur all sexy, but here's playing by the rules hehe)

1. Cindy
2. Mary
3. Daphne

Turn 30 edy?

Happie Birthday to ME! Yeah, its 24 January 2009 (Im officially turn 30 this day...(shhhs)slowly say ya...30 already me ooo.... :) (Heavy GRIN)

Finally i say Goodbye to my precious 20ties and with an Open Heart I Welcomed my 30ties... Wow, I've already live my life for 30 years in this world! People said life's begin at 30ties (gitu ka tu?) hehe... So with an Open Heart i HOPE this will brings me MORE luck and MORE MONEY to come...(hahahahha)

Looking back to those memoriable 20 years of living in this world, i should be so grateful and be so happy to know that im surrounded by lovely and good hearted people. Im been blessed to have been born to my Family and grown up to be a good person! Thanks to mum and dad + my Brothers and Sisters for making me a HUMAN!! hahahhaha. I love you all so much! and for the people around me... im so thankful because i known u all! So much memories to mention here :)

Anyway, My birthday is near to Chinese New Year Celebration, I take this opportunity to wish to all my friends out there a very happy Chinese New Year and celebrate it with joyous and meaningful ya. I cant go home ...waaaaa im so sad...
Nevermind, at least On my birthday i got to organise one BBQ pool party at my house.

okie have fun during this holiday seasons...

Tagged By Nancy Peter...

Tagged again by Nancy... Nancy im so sleepy!!! nasib baik ko tag me!!!

RULES: ~ Bold or color the statements that are true for you. Italicize the statements that you wish are true. Leave the fibs alone. Then, tag 5 people to do the same test~ ( walau...5 people again?)


I miss somebody right now.
I love vacation.
I bake a cake.
I do not watch TV these days.
I wear glasses or contact lenses.
I love to play video games.
I am married.
I have tried marijuana.
I still love with my ex-boyfriend/girlfriend.
I have been in a threesome.
I believe honesty is usually the best policy.
I have changed mentally over the last year.
I carry my knife/razor everywhere with me.
I curse.
I’m totally smart.
I’ve broken someone’s bones.
I’m paranoid sometimes.
I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost,and scar-free.
I need money right now.
I love sushi.
I talk really, really fast.
I am a millionaire.
I have long hair.
I have lost money in Las Vegas.
I have at least one sibling.
I have worn fake hair/fingernails/eyelashes in the past.
I couldn’t survive without Caller ID.
I like the way I look.
I am usually pessimistic.
I have a lot of mood swings.
I have a hidden talent.
I have a lot of friends.
I am currently single.
I have pecked someone of the same sex.
I enjoy talking on the phone.
I practically live in sweatpants or PJ pants.
I love to shop.Enjoy window shopping.
I would rather shop than eat.
I don't hate anyone.
I am a pretty good dancer.
I love sex.
I have a cell phone.
I believe in God.
I watch MTV on a daily basis.
I have passed out drunk in the past 6 months.
I’ve rejected someone before.
I want to have children in the future.
I have changed a diaper before.
I’ve called the cops on a friend before.
I am not allergic to anything.
I have a lot to learn.
I’m shy around members of the opposite sex.
I have made a move on a friend’s significant other or crush in the past.
I have tried alcohol before.
I own the South Park movie.
I would die for my best friend.
I love to chat (YM/MSN/etc..)
I think that Pizza Hut has the best pizza.
I have used my sexuality to advance my career.
I love Michael Jackson, scandals and all.
Halloween is awesome because you get free candy.
I watch Spongebob Squarepants and I like it.
I am happy at this moment.
I’m obsessed with girls.
I’m obsessed with boys.
I tie my shoelaces differently from anyone I’ve ever met.
I study for tests most of the time.
I am comfortable with who I am right now.
I have more than just my ears pierced.
I walk barefoot wherever I can.
I have jumped off a bridge.
I love sea turtles.
I spend ridiculous money on makeup.
Plan on achieving a major goal/dream.
I’m proficient in a musical instrument.
I worked at McDonald’s restaurant.
I hate office jobs.
I love sci-fi movies.
I went college out of state.
I like sausages.
I love kisses.
I fall for the worst people.
I can’t live without black eyeliner.
I don’t know why the hell I just did this stupid thing.
I usually like covers better than originals.
I can move my tongue in waves, much like a snake’s slither.
I have ridden/owned a horse.
I still have every journal I’ve written in.
I can’t stick to a diet.
I talk in my sleep.
I wear a toe ring.
I can’t stand at LEAST one person that I work with.
I am a caffeine junkie.
I feel sad sometimes.
I’m an artist.
I only clean my room when necessary.
I am an adrenaline junkie.
I love being happy.
I am on diet.

Okie... Im done! well there's a lot of things I wish I can Add in here...but well LET IT BE la!

Siapa I wanna TAG ya? emmmmmmmm ( I think I dont want to TAG anybody la)