Someone You Used to Know...

SAYING GOODBYE IT HARD .....

I always knew that saying goodbye leaves a vacuum in our heart.A pain that hurts so much...u feel helpless where to find the cure. Goodbyes are sometimes temporary yet most of the time its forever.

Letting go is a form of goodbye. Its not because you want it but its because you have to. Its a decision u wish you will never make but still do so others can go on without you. "Its like having the right person at the wrong time or having the right time with the wrong person."

SOMETIMES....i wonder if the one saying goodbye is feeling more pain or the one left behind?....Either way the guilt maybe on the one saying goodbye and the pain is on the one left behind.

BUT love really works on its own reasons.

Sometimes you have to say goodbye because of that love...let it go because you have to. Its not because you love less but because maybe you are loving more.

Maybe you will feel the guilt ,the pain but in the end you know its worth it.
You know sometimes...the trouble with HELLO is.............GOODBYE.

The song "Someone You Used to Know..." by Zee Avi really has a deep meaning for me... Listen and you will understand. Goodbye Love Goodbye Love...Its time for me to leave you as you wish... Sorry it took me long enough to realized it. I hope you will get the satisfaction now.

Cry On My Shoulder

If the hero never comes to you
If you need someone, you're feeling blue
If you wait for love, and you're alone
If you'll call your friends, nobody's home
You can run away, but you can't hide
Through a storm and through a lonely night
Then I'll show you, there's a destiny
The best things in life, they are free

P/S: I need someone's shoulder to cry on right now!

Make It Go Away or Make it Better...

Lyrics

This song really touched my heart! I love this song so much... Make it go away OR Make it Better. Enjoy the song

Make it go away or make it better
Isnt that what love is supposed to do?
Make it go away or make it better
Cause I would do either one for you
This is not the way you should see me

p/s: Be Strong and everything will fall into places...
I will choose Make it Better if i can...

Moving to next door

Yup! Im moving house, and its not far but its very near ... just next door to my previous house!!!hahahaha so easy to moved out my "Barang-barang". and Im sooo blessed i got 2 helper from KK to helped me to moved all my barang-barang! Thanks Adi Mary and Definy for helping me moved all my barang-barang! FYI berat tau TILAM saya dorang angkat!Enda banyak ba barang sia kan...hehe! Nasib baik Adi datang visited me during this time...

And now im suffering from finding a replacement for my old room. Its seems that i couldnt "sell" that room. I dont know why my ADDs http://www.klue.com.my/klassifieds/6251 only attracts GUYS and Couples to go and view the room! Typical GIRLS they have so many needs to fullfilled! They couldnt lived without "Washing Machine; Water Heater; Internet line; Aircond; Car Park" and maybe the Rent is a bit HIGH la! I dont blame them also... kalo sewa terlampau tinggi nanti enda boleh shopping! Im still struggling to find a housemates for my old house! Today im goin to met 3 guys and 1 couple to view the room! Crossfingers la ni! Hope one of them will pick the room. Bagus ba view bilik lama sia. Swimming Pool tau! boleh tinguk sumandak siang malam tau! huhu

Now im sharing the house with my Cousin and maybe my niece(soon). enda la pening kepala saya like before! So many things to do to the new house! sekarang still bersepah! enda ada masa mau susun. Nanti la lepas saya balik dari KK next week! Oh ya, im going back to Sabah this coming Friday till Monday to attend my NEPHEW's wedding at Tawau! adui gia... kawin suda si Boy!

Isolated??

For some reasons I myself don't know why I'm so down this few days. I don't felt like myself anymore. I just isolated myself from everything and everyone. What has happened to me? I wonder?? Am I Tired? Sick? Frustrated? Aimless? Meaningless? I don't have any clue... I still wondering keep on yawning and wondering.

I wondered why I looked at people around me so differently as before? I can felt that they want/have something to tell me but they reluctant to tell me and keep on keeping that thing to themselves. I wonder how long will they keep it to themselves before they gonna burst it out to me??? I wonder... How long i will keep myself like this. Remain Silence and Isolating myself from everyone... I wonder??

I keep on yawner and wonder beyond this dilemma, I wonder...

I need to wake up to make myself useful again. Come on u can pass this dilemma and be yourself again. Don't give up YET! Sigh, how I wish...


"Ivy keep on her Moody mood until Evening and she is still in wondering wonderland"

Self Meditation

In life there's a few questions which we have to ask to ourselves and we will never get the answers correctly or truthfully! or we might be too afraid/scare to know the truth and answer yet we tend to ignore all consequences to the questions...and we turn ourselves blind along the way...like a blindfold man ... Some of the questions will linger to our head every minutes, every moments, every seconds... Me myself will never escape from this such questions... these are what I always had in my mind lately! some of the questions is unanswered and undeniable but Im blessed because i have Faith with me all along the way to clear my mind from unwanted thoughts!
These are some of the lists about confusion and questions which has always linger on my mind.

1.Have u ever LIED to yourself? Telling yourself everything will be fine,will be okay?Even though u know only Miracles will help.
2.Have u ever felt so ALONE in your life before?
3.Have u ever felt BETRAYED before?
4.Have u ever felt so insecure and lonely?
5.Have u ever felt so small in the eyes of others?
6.Have u ever felt life is like a box of Chocolate? or
7.Have u ever felt like u been treat like a box of Chocolate?
8.Have u ever felt the world is laughing at your failure?
9.Have u ever felt like u don't want to continue living with your previous life and want to starts over with new life?
10.Have u ever felt u want to change yourself for a better person and forget all the heartache u have now?
11.Have u ever wish u were rich and beautiful? so that people will looked at u and respect and love u everymoment?
12.Have u ever wish u never knew "one person" in your life ever?
13.Have u ever wish u could turn back the clock and changed whatever past life u had?
14.Have u ever felt glad that u were born to your family? but u never had the time to spend with them?
15.Have u ever wish u never be so stupid and so naif with life?
16.Have u ever felt all the TIME/DURATION u spend waiting for something and yet still in "???"is stupid?
17.Have u ever felt lost? but GOD help u to go trough with all the pain by giving u HOPE and GRACE?
18.Have u ever wish life will be more easier and more understandable?
19.Have u ever wish u could understand "that person" as before? and lastly
20.Have u ever wish everything that happen to u, is only a dream?

These are some of my Questions about my life...i always think and asks myself the TRUTH answer. BUT i just couldnt find and im still searching for IT...someday somehow or rather i will/hope i understand what life is about and i will find the answer to all this questions. This is LIFE!

One thing I know...I must not let myself fall out and shouldn't give up on life yet! I must be strong and accepts all without anger and disappointment. :)

TAG... again!

Wow... Another AWARD ka NANCY??? Thank you horr for this Awesome AWARD .u deserve all the awards too... I meant IT horrr...

1st Award:

Emm this Award a bit Awkward to me though cause my Blog...tak seksi pun...:( ini bermakna aku kena la kerja lebih sikit utk buat Blog ini menjadi lebih seksi! Duh... i will, i will... in the future! Keep in mind!

2nd Award:

Friendship... Yeah! to all my friends out there, who have a blogspot or dont have any blog, i love u guys! Thanks for being my FRIENDs ya! U know who u are, keep smile always lit on your face, because u will never know u might makes other person smile as well!

3rd Award:

The Rules:
1.) Put the logo in your post.
2.) Write 5 things you are passionate about aside from blogging.
3.) Tag 5 people on your lists and let them know you tagged them.
Have fun blogging guys, and enjoy and don't forget to pass or tag your friends whom you think are passionate bloggers :-)

Five Things I'm passionate
1)Travelling
(when $$ n time permits)Yeah this is TRUE Nancy. (I copy arrr)
2)Friendships (More meaningful)
3)Books.( I have to admit this, I love READING! I loves books)
4)Food. ( kuat makan tapi enda pandai gemuk2 juga! Geram Saya!)
and
5)Ice-Cream ( boleh ka?)bila depress ini la makanan kegemaran saya
6)Flowers ( I love FLOWERS esp TULIPS)
hehehe i add one more! boleh ba kan!

I think i will tag..

1. Marysheallyn
2. Cherrylenn
3. Cindy
4. Shalyn ( if she happens to notice this TAG!)