Oh my GOSH

20/April/2007 - What a day... right now im so confused about my LIFE...especially my love life... arrrgh what can i say? i was so down right now.. needy to say.. i say if i could turn back the clock... i would do it. so much i could say, i dont know where i stand right now. pretending im ok with all this mess, pretending i understand everything. nothing else i want in this life, i just want the people around me to be happy. me? who dont want to be happy in life? life is like u sleeping in a bed spreads with roses full of thorns. sometimes it can be beautiful, but most of the time everything is not like what we have planned for. understanding is important here. do i understand all the consiquences behind all the lies? :) only me can answer that. oh what a big leap in my life. now i have to bring my life to most of it. i know i should do it long ago but TIME always keeps me from doing it. for sure there's no turning back right now. whatever decision i make today it will reflects the whole situations later. bring yourself embrace yourself... i know u will not regret for the things comes to u later. people keep on forcing me to do this and that...asking me this and that... telling me i should get married by now, have children, and have a family, who on earth dont want a life with family in it? tell me? but this is a big decision to make, me alone cannot make it happens... its takes 2 to tango right? if i can do it myself...i wish i could ...people around please understand the situations here. talk is easy but to makes it happen it not like eating peanuts. oooo im so confused and MAD. HELP here...